WOW I haven't been on here in forever!!! how is everyone? I really have nothing to blog right now. lol but yea. check out the website lisa and I made!!!!!

http://fanpires.hostzi.com

 So I'm sure as everyone but jeff knows that I am now.....the dreaded... Single... yes. Since Tuesday April 15th I have been SINGLE! and actually.. i'm ok with that. The first 24 hours of this was hard but I thank you that have been there for me. And i will make it up to you I swear! But what ever. Time goes on and Matt is my past. So Love you all bunches! 

love, 
~Mikki~

Have you ever felt so alone?
Like no one cared?
Nothing to own?

I feel that way,
As I watch you act
Like it was nothing.
Like we never were

I feel that way, 
As I watch you hug them 
With your adorable smile.
You don’t see the tears
But you know their there.

Have you ever felt like you wasted your time?
Everything you thought was real,
Was just for fun?
Like they never really cared?

I have, I do.
I look at you. 
Screaming inside, 
Wondering what I did wrong.

Then I see, 
Your just as happy with out me. 
So now…
All I can do is move on.

 Good bye </3

You won't make it.
That's all I hear.
You're a failure is what I get.
I try, is that not enough?
I always thought,
If it's what you want,
and you work for it,
The hard work is all that matters.
You won't make it.
Is what you say
you'll see,
I'll prove you wrong.
Maybe not today,
Maybe not right away,
But someday.
I won't give up
Nor will I fall down.
My grades won't help me,
but neither will you.
I know you say I won't make it,
But trust me,
I will.

you know, the more i think about it the more i realize. the ppl you claim your best friends r the ppl that you know the least about. or even your bf or gf... really how much do you know about them? give me my best friend and i bet i could tell you more about her then she could me... course.. i bet none of you know much about me. i keep to myself alot. this i realize.. and this i'm sorry for.. but look things happen and i supose the lil i do tell does make me sounds like a whore but i promise i'm not. my life is just complicated much like everyone elses but i feel i need to keep it to myself. i get mad at ppl for tellin me everythin cause i have my own problems but what ever. i mean hey ppl need someone to listen so that is me.. the wall flower of it all. and that is not the way i want it to me...but what ever.
~Mikki~
oh and who gave someone the premission or right to give out my number??? not me

mk so i'm up here in Burlington, Vermont bored out of my FUCKING mind... and i REALLY miss my boyfriend and friends. grr a whole week at home with my father... who do you think will die first? odds are my daddy. lol JK! my sis will take me away. but omg you ppl.. if you lose contact i will find your houses and kill you with my spork that i must get from jeff! hehe. love ya.
~Mikki~

EW IT's coming again!!!!???!?!? ugh does it ever go away? i hate all the happiness, the hugging and kissing and the "oh i love you!" please... no one loves someone. GUYS DONT LOVE GIRLS!!!!!! they don't know what love it. only the gay ones do. valentines day is just a waste of time and a reason for someone to get a gift. not only just a gift but some imbarressing and others just sickeningly romantic... ew ew ew and double freakin EW!!!!! omg i hate happiness and love!.... um.. i love you mattt?? lol wait he dont have this so me no worry!! YAY!!! lol dont ask. buh bye. oh and jeff. tomarrow i'll talk if you still want to. i've thought about it all since that note so buh bye ppl!!!!

love you all,
~Mikki~

I am sorry. you all were right. ray was just using me. he was controlling me. well that all ends today. i'm done. my friends have been there for me even when i treated them like shit. and i'm sorry for all of them. i love you all and i hope you will take me back.. Ray of Sunshine can call in a few years when he loses his virginity and make me listen to it. my love for him is almost gone. he cheated on me with a girl he repeated over and over was nothing to him. for the past 2 days. he has called me her name. " Sammie, cut it out i... i mean mikki cut it out. i love you no one else." he would say. that made me wonder. so i "Accidentlly" wondered onto her myspace page. and found july 28th, 29th, and 30th he had sent comments saying i love you baby..... think of the odds... so yes. it is almost over with him. but he likes to play mind games?? so do i *smirks* think of the fun in this one. lol. yup and i'm happy to say the mikki from school. that takes no shit from anyone. IS BACK. i miss you all. i can not wait till school starts back up. the drama from that was alot easier then the summer i was put through. so my apologies goes to all of you that i haven't been there for. the ones i ditched because my one true love ray told me you weren't real friends. i let him control me for way to long and i was slowly finding my way out of it. but last night when he tried to take my best friend away but keep her as a friend pissed me off. i hope we all can still be friends.
love always,
~Kitten~

"(singing)I've Got My Mind Made Up. And i Wont Go Back, CAuse I want To See My Jesus someday. I've Got My Mind MadeUp. And I Wont Go Back, Cause i want to see my jesus someday. Goodbye World. i stand no longer with you. Goodbye Pleasures of sin, i stand no longer with you. I've Made up MY Mind To Go God's Way The Rest Of My Life, I've Made Up My Mind To Go Gods Way The Rest Of My Life. (speaking) And If you aint feelin that, i pray for ya."

~kitten~

she has grown up SOOOO Much!!!!

lol yup and for everyone that doesnt know I HAVE A BF!!!! but we might break up cause of his damn sister.... stupid bitch...i mean what! lol iight no one heard that last part about his sister. love you

love always,
~Kitten~

Calling out around the world
Are you ready for a brand new beat
Summer's here and the time is right
For dancing in the streets
They're dancing in Chicago
Down in New Orleans
In New York City

All we need is music, sweet music
There'll be music everywhere
They'll be swinging, swaying, records playing,
Dancing in the street, oh

It doesn't matter what you wear, just as long as you are there
So come on, every guy, grab a girl, everywhere, around the world
They'll be dancing, dancing in the street

It's an invitation across the nation, a chance for folks to meet
They'll be laughing and singing, music swinging
Dancing in the street

Philadelphia, PA
Baltimore in DC now
Don't forget the motor city
On the streets of Brazil
Back in the USSR
No matter where you are

All we need is music, sweet music
There'll be music everywhere
They'll be swinging, swaying, records playing
Dancing in the street, oh

It doesn't matter what you wear
Just as long as you are there
So come on every guy, grab a girl, everywhere, around the world
They'll be dancing, dancing in the streets

Way down in L.A., everyday
Dancing in the streets
Cross in China too
Me and you
Dancing in the street

Don't you know
They'll be dancing
Dancing in the street (repeat)

so i have this friend that eats her boogers....and he bf doesnt know..... and he kisses her. EW!!!!! but me and my other friends cant tell him because he will say we r just trying to break them up.... and um..... well.... idk should i tell him? or should i just wait till they break up?????

~Mikala's Friend Sara~

How evil are you?

lol ok so i kinda knew this but....wow i didnt know i was that evil....... lol wow oh well.

~Kitten~

*dances around smiling then sees friends and stops* sadly thats how i am. im all happy then my friend come around and im not happy untill they start craking jokes........ *sigh* w.e......... RUSSIAN TAVAIN MUSIC!!!!!! WOOT!!!! lol *sings to it and dances!!!* WOOOOOOOOTTTTT!!!!!!!
~Kitten~

so lets say my friend michelle....haha bs yall know its me... idc...i have issues and i dont like the path god as choicen for me after last friday....dont get me wrong i gained someone i would never trade the world for but..... techniqule i didnt..... star did... so anyways. im here waiting for him like i said i would and holding myself up by this one lil strand i have left.... that one lil strand is all that is keeping me from doing somthing stupid.... if it wasn't for the promise i made i would let go of that strand and watch the ppl around me laugh and smile while i fall off that cliff and just go back to being that emo freak i use to me.... im only the girl i am now because my mom made me come out of my dark side... she wanted me to have friends and be known for something...honestly....i couldnt care less if i had friends but the friends i have i will always be there for. but if they caught up and just left me... yes i would be extremly deprest..but there would be nothing i could do so i would just let go of that sstrand and let me be mikala stephanie prouty....not mikki...not kitten....not anybody but the girl i was born to be..... but nobody wants to see that gurl and im afraid of that gurl. my heart is in so many peices because of her... and the one man that promised he would always love me left me. now im trying to start over and get a new man that will love me.... well geez im SINGLE!!! how good do u think im doing??? my best friend is gone and now all i have to turn to is the friends at school that dont know the real me and if i have my way. they never will. i hate hiding myself but i dont wanna face myself again.... no thank you... thats just not a pretty site... but for now i must go and try to figure out what im going to do in my life with out a bf, with out my bff, and without the love and suport i need but am trying to give myself. no i dont want ur pitty and i dont want ur sad looks. all i want is someones love... and i dont want anyone giving my their love unless they really do love me! get it? got it? good plz dont hurt me anymore then i am. my heart can only take so much more.

love always,
~Kitten~